yeah I've heard. That's why everybody likes different strains. This was my first try and honestly it was just overwellming as i tend to overthink when using substances and they catch me off guard.
Even your set and setting matters in it. It took me a couple of months to master using THC the right way. It is not that simple, not as simple as opioids where you always know what to expect.
yes exactly because with this you can get highly unexpected effects. I literally had auditory halucinations yesterday for almost 2 hours. they eventuallyfaded and it never got to a point where I would think that they're real, I was always aware of what is real and what isn't, but still, frightening.
but I'm an overthinker because I'm most of the time not used to my mind not working properly so if a substance hits me hard at once I can get extremely anxious quickly
I prefer chemical drugs over natural ones, because I am in control of dosage (aside fentanyl maybe) :P and I can be precise in my expectation to execution.
honestly from my experiences I also prefer chemical, but I have not done any psychadelics. But it's true that I can just control myself much better, not just dosage wise but also for example, with MDMA your headspace will always be the same so you know exactly what to expect. And I kind of like that, even though I'm usually quite adventurous.
MDMA did not work for me sadly. I took 200 mg of MDMA in 8 hour interval (50 mg every 2 hours) once and - it just did not work. I tried it for a couple of times - not my cup of tea. I also have some experience with dissociatives (ketamine and dxm) and stimulants (metylphenidate, amphetamine, some betaketones). Not to mention other depressants like benzos (diazepam, clonazepam, lorazepam, midazolam) and barbituranes (fenobarbital). Nothing is as unique as THC I think to close it in one group of substances. I tried psylocibine twice but no great effects as well.
Choosing the edible form of THC for the first time was quite brave decision. The decarboxylated form of THC dissolved in butter, milk, fats mainly makes you unable to control the dosage after eating it. Please note that properly prepared THC taken orally is stronger and works much longer than the traditional dry herb. It won't kill you, but be careful with it in case of unpleasant adverse effects. When the anxiety will occure, benzos are the first aid and last hope.
it's interesting that MDMA did not work for you. It really should have and it's the first time that I've heard anyone say that it doesn't work. Also, do not get me started on benzos. I probably had my worst drug experience blacking out on lorazepam 2 weeks ago and it turned into a big shitshow because I was so nonfunctional that of course it was noticeable and it was extremely, extremely bad. i took about 6 mg, 3 pills of 2 mg each, in intervals of about 1 pill per hour. for some stupid reason I didn't want to go to sleep and then when I did, I don't remember anything after that pretty much. I have done lorazepam before tis but never had such strong blackout effects, although it was pretty close one time before this. This thing completely destroyed my memory that day. I just kept redosing because after the first one you don't feel getting more intoxicated, at least in my case, but it just hits you like a train reck and you don't even realise it until it's already way way too late. As for other drugs, I haven't tried pretty much anyting else except MDMA which I had a blast on. I'm planning to do the standard amphetamine at some point and also ketamine and DXM, psychadelics I'm just not ready for yet.
Ohhh man, your dose of lorazepam was also quite high. I know that you were desperate enough to fall a sleep but you only did harm to yourself. Not to mention that lorazepam itself is the worst choice for insomnia you can make. Benzos don't act the same as well. In this case, the effects are more towards anti-anxiety than pure sedation similar to diazepam and clonazepam.
Wow ya 2 wrote a lot. Straight forward and honest? It's not a thing, rather I'm adicted to the past. Particularely parts of 2022, and small parts around april/march of 2023. I live in the past why deny it, but I gave up trying to move on.
same. Also yeah, lorazepam isn't great for insomnia. Thankfully it ended how it did, it could have been even worse. I just acted in a stooper the entire day and didn't do harm to others thank god.
Blackouts after benzos are a serious thing and can lead you to law inforcements even (know from my experience) :D and "fun" begins when you find out what you've done anddon't remember a think.
oh and for your MDMA consumption. It really depends on your hight and weight. The good way to go about it is to multiply your weight with 1.5 mg/kg. So for me my dose gets to about 112 mg, I usually do 120 for my starter dose, then boost with 60s. Perhaps this is why it did not work because 50 is relatively small actually. The usual recommended dose for therapy is even between 80 and 100 mg.
But I will be honest with you the less you do it the better it is, I know from personal experience. You overdo it and you'll regret it for a long, long time
